Working

Things are working right now, and it is really nice. 

The schedule is challenging, yet attainable. 

Although I am not a schedule person by nature, and I generally rebel against structure (even my own), I look forward to next week with comfort and security. 

I often feel a strange confusion over what and how much to expect of myself.  I want to progress, and there are lots of things I would like to do better.  But I often expect too much and fall into despair at the failure to meet those expectations. 

It is nice to feel like I am at least on a path of progress.  For so many many months (years probably), I have been in survival mode.  Things that were forced off of my radar are now being attended to, and it feels great.

I am studying, reading and writing more.
The Lord is helping me to be more active, though regular exercise is still in the works.
My kids are making consistent progress academically.
We are reading together again, almost every night!  (Oh, how I've missed this)
We go to bed with a clean kitchen.
I am starting to think about improving our diet.
I am losing my aversion to self-help and nonfiction books.

I still fight the temptation to become overwhelmed by all of the things I am not doing.  Some days it is still a hard struggle.

But after swimming underwater for so long,

It is nice to come up for air.
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