Better Days

These have been better days. 
I am still tired and achy and occasionally restless.
I still miss my kids while they are at school.
My little ones miss them, too.  They were particularly fussy and quarrelsome today.
But I feel better.  Peaceful.

I got my blessing on Monday night. 
I did not sleep well at all that night.
But I had an idea that Candida might be causing a lot of my tiredness and itchiness and grouchiness.  I felt that I should try a special diet for one week and see if it made a difference.  As I lay awake, I thought of things I should avoid: sugars, fruits, yeast breads, white flour.  This is a very extreme, and hopefully temporary change to get my body back in balance.  I know I can do it for a week!  I also had some time to think about things I CAN eat, which was important. 

What a difference I felt in the morning!

I gave myself permission to read and rest for most of that day.
Brandon needed to come home early because of a headache.  It was good for us to get dressed and get out of the house for a few minutes.
I did a little housework and remembered some errands that needed to be run.
I called Dallin to see if he wanted to make it a date night, and he did.  We really needed it!
We had dinner, took care of errands, finished up some Christmas shopping, and enjoyed one another.
At the grocery store we saw some good friends we haven't seen for years.  It was wonderful to catch up!
On the way home, I got a text message that my class on Becoming Spiritually Centered was starting.  I had missed the email. Dallin graciously offered to drop me off and help the kids frost their Christmas cookies, their reward for taking care of things so well while we were gone. 
It is so wonderful to learn and study about the Savior with friends.  We have such fun and wonderful and uplifting discussions. 
The topic for the evening was Godly Sorrow.  Part of the discussion was about being willing to go through pain and suffering for the Savior.  When we do all things, work, play, worship, suffer, for him and with him it allows us to experience a fulness of joy.  The discussion was a missing piece of the puzzle for me.  There has been something about the class that kept bothering me, and this answered my concern.  I was also impressed with how liberating it is to keep this in mind when we are suffering at the hands of someone else.  If we focus on the Savior instead of the offender, we are freed from the anger and vengeance that so naturally come.  We are given the chance to turn our hurt into joy and gratitude as we suffer a little for the One who suffered so much for us.

It is so wonderful to wake and feel the peace of the Lord instead of the fog of the world. 
Today was not easy, but it was good.
I again feel peace about my children going to school.
I was able to finish a couple of Christmas projects.
Dallin brought leftovers home from his luncheon, so I didn't have to make dinner.
We made some changes in Daisy's schedule and chore requirements to help her cope with the school schedule better.  I think it helped.  She is happy to feel like she can finish her responsibilities. 
It was hard to say no to the white hard rolls, cinnamon frosted muffins, and donuts that came home with dinner, but I did it! 

Everything is okay!
I would like a donut.